Didn’t think it’d be like this with these old skeletons I thought I’d buried long ago. Take off that chemical overcoat you’ve been living in for a good 2 years and brace for the elements as they have their way with your silly, weak, humanity. Maybe I was depressed this whole time but literally too dumb from the pills for my brain to actually interpret emotions. I don’t remember feeling much in the past couple years. I remember being afraid to go to sleep sometimes because I thought I wasn’t going to wake up. I remember being sick, and consumed by such panic I couldn’t even make out words. Can’t even look in the mirror, that’s when you know it’s gotten bad. Yea, I remember this now, that dead ball of dark energy swelling inside your chest, the omnipotent anger, circular thoughts and dead end desires. Kinda feel like im on an iceberg, just breaking off from the larger glacier, I look around me and realize I am all alone, its freezing cold and there is no escape, death surrounds me on all sides, and I have no choice but to simply stay put, and wait for the world to have its way with me, as I am helpless.
